I remember encounters with one internal boy. I remember at the time thinking that he was ‘relatively ok for a kegs boy’, as I heard and overheard far worse situations, dynamics and encounters about other pupils. This boy (who was brown) asked another internal boy (who was black) for an ‘n word pass’ in exchange for a slice of pizza, a few weeks into the first term of year 12. When people called him out he used the n word, trying to joke about it. Later in the academic year, at Charity Ball, he remarked that he would try not look below my waist. When I asked what he meant or why, he said that because I had a slit in my dress, he ‘couldn’t not sexualize’ me.